yesterday was hallowen...no..as i said..it's hello-wind...the 7pm nite sky is like 9pm...this is the first time i feel so excited sitting on a bus in a stormy nite...i saw steps that look exactly like waterfalls....i like to see empty basketball court and playground...see the raindrops through the street lights...feel the bus that i was on drove into a puddle of water...see cars 死车 on the flooded road...never see singapore so flooded before..hope u had a interesting hello-wind too...

i'm quite a rubbish bin. i like to keep things. because, to me, somethings, when u don't keep it, it never come back again. i like to keep the 'old' things. you may treat it as 草, feel that it's meaningless, but to me, all these are 宝. once they are gone, it'll be forever.请不要丢掉他。

if you're reading this...do a count...how many years have you known me...maybe...n years down the road...i ask the same qn...time past again...as one grow older...does one have more or less friends.....do you understand more about some pple...or more about more people..or simply less about some pple....less about more pple...

 

the most complex thing in life is simply 'human'. you need to counter them...need to manage them...need to understand them...

 

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Work is as complicated...y so..cos human is only part of work....i've been playing a 'dectactive' at work...but i still can go off on time...it's a blessing

 

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life.....seems more complicated now...when you always bring up the same topic.....so stressful......i'm still running away from it....maybe the only way to break through point 2 will be this.....

 

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one by one.....will be gone soon...things will get worse....*sense it*

 

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the day i bought my slr...it was raining....when i was on the bus....i seems to be in my own world....all sounds seem blurred....i thought i was still dreaming....at least i felt that i accomplish something....

 

Half a year has just passed. So, what have you accomplished? I can ask you but i can't answer it myself. opps. This phrase kept moving on my mind these times :  ‘算了。。算了。。

 

I've been falling sick, fever, flu, sore throat, eye infection seems to be visiting me rather often these days. *shoo...go away* . I was just on 3 days mc/home quaratine. Don't worry, i'm ok by now, not spreading germs

 

I've been looking forward to wkends? Are you also? Weekdays always seems so long, weekends always seem so short, right? Surely mah, weekday 5 days weekend 2 days. So busy in office these days. I've been snowballing. Luckily my wonderful team mate always help me out. But it seems like we've been making quite a fiar bit of mistakes these days. I declare i cock eye so i very scared to 4-eye. I need to do something about it. Can anyone advise me how to be more careful?

 

I've also seem how crude and evil some people maybe. How harsh, how practical this world is. There i go again, ‘算了。。算了。。It is really important to know how to 看开一点。But it's always easier said than done.

 

Are you happy? It seems hard to find happy people nowadays. Look around you. It seems like everyone has something to worry about. 开心也过一天，不开心也过一天. Why not choose to start a day feeling happy.  I think my problem now is only i always start my day feeling sleepy instead. haha.Sometimes, just give yourself a break. Don't keep hanging onto all your worries 24/7. This is so as worrying may only worsen the situation right.

 

I keep telling myself 'opportunites doesn't come knocking at your door everyday' so i grab them. I want to hold them tight but i think that may also indicate more disappointment. There are times one want to move on but keep looking back. When one compares onself to the others, the following always seems true: the grass is always greener on the other side.

 

I want to be better off the other half of the year but i don't know what my benchmark is.

 

good nite =)

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i feel like running away

i've not been saving

i want a different life

i don't feel like doing anything

i feel that some people are pushing me too much

i need to reflect more

i've low confidence

i feel deprive of being happy

i want to sing

i'm irritated easily these days

i feel ignored at times

i don't feel like doing anything

i need to be less sensitive

i want to make a difference

i feel like letting go

i don't feel like helping anymore

i need to feel alive

i'm not happy with what i've now

i feel useless at times

i want to buy things

i need to be more understanding

i'm blant

i din think b4 i speak at times

i want to make u smile

i'm not a nice person to be wif

i can't help but to compare

i want to laugh

i need good food

i feel poor

i'm tired

i want to ignore

i don't want to think too much