i still rmb when i first saw all of you...7 cute little puppies...i grab some of you up...smiled at your innocent faces...saw u all ran around and hide in any possible corners...

 

years past...7 little puppies soon grew to huge big dogs....i watched all of you grow from little ones to the size of your mum...

 

i'll never forget....

 

whenever i stepped out of my dad's car...they will juz crowd around me...licking all over me...i'll stroke each of them...so that none will feel that i'm bias towards any other dog....

 

whenever i walked to the toilet....i will always have a few of these body guards waiting outside for me....

 

whenever i'm bored of studying...all of you will be around to play with....

 

i simply love each one of you....i miss you all...it has been a long time since i stroke your heads...

 

but it was only yesterday my dad requested for me to call SPCA this morning...5 of the dogs are sick...some of them can't even walk properly....i was very worried....i can't wait till today to call SPCA...i called last night...had a very long conversation with the SPCA personel...they will come in today to bring the dogs back for treatment....to some or all of them...it may be the last time they can be here...if they can't be treated...they will never be back...

 

how's pa moulding me?....

...feeling not motivated eveyday....

...make me feel demoralised....

...make me measure my self-worth...

...cracking my mind to find new way to slack w/o being noticed...

...make me short temper...

...induce me grumble to a lot a lot to many pple...

...allow me how to figure out how to act busy when all i need to do is call 8 pple in 6-7 hrs when 99% chance is unreachable or voicemail

 

finally...to wonder how to survive 41 more days of such days...

 

....i can't wait for PA to end.....

 

i tot i would be in some HR department...i was in agency distribution...

i tot i would haf some interesting work to do...all i did was admin....to see it now...HR admin is even better then non-HR admin...

my table has been empty for a yr or so...so imagine the amt of dust it collected.....

i've no stationary at all...not even a paperclip can be found...

my mouse can't work at all...

my pc is not connected to the printer juz a few steps away but to the printer at the other end of the office...*the office is quite big*

when i open the drawers...i saw paper plates..plastic bowl......napkins..u want?..still haf fork n spoon too....

my asst manager gave me a task to make some calls...i keep noding my head..but ended wif...i dun haf a telephone on my table...

i'm a cheap labour...dun even feel like eating lunch..cos it seems ex....

 

sounds bad?...not totally...

 

my colleague found a spare mouse for me...

i get one of the perm staff to bring me get some stationary...

my supervisor is motherly...but she going on half mth leave soon...

she'll pass us to the asst manager...

n my asst manager turned out to my ex-executive's gd fren...we do go lunch tgt last time...the world is juz so small...

i'm the only one frm ntu in my dpt...

i dun keep numb...i tok to my spervisor...i told her to gif me some more HR related work to do...

as she also played a part as a HR personnel for her dpt...she said she would ask the asst manager to gif me HR admin work

 

i'm not motivated at all....

 

kind souls sld help to pray for all pple in PA..i may not be only or the worst one....thanks

 

tired.....muscle hurts from today's walking n yesterday badminton....my body has been resting for too long....

 

the sun was soarching hot..i mean it..i feel it burnin my feet today...but i still went to take photos...i've been waiting for a sunny afternoon..so it gave me a burning afternoon....

 

walked for 2 hrs non stop...took 197...n alighted some distance b4 outram....din took much photos...but i walked till i reach raffles...i just guess my way whenever i reach a junction...

 

but quite disappointed with the photos i took today...i only had one that i like....the face with the lock one...do drop by the photo album- photoshoot 757... =)

 

 

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hohoho...after i cough till i teared..i decided to go to the sch medical center..guess what..i exchanged $30 for more pills....not to say...i yet to finish the one i had from the last doc....

it's getting depressing...my throat hurts and swell again...after completing the anti-biotic n the swelling med...it came back with flu...juz like this moment...it has been giving my nose air-tight services...not allowing even any air particles to pass through...forcing me to breathe thru the already swelling throat....

 

sick...sick of eating medcine...sick of seeing doc...sick of struggling wif illness and exams....sick of making pple worry...to summarize...i'm getting sick of myself...

woke up wif rashes all over my body...red and itchy...went to see doc again....drug allergy...although i need not pay for this consultation but i spent 1.5 hr in the clinic...also came back wif more pills to pop...

 

doc says the medical name of my infection is infectious mononucleosis...

 

help me pray tat the medicine tat will cause drowsiness will not make me feel slpy later...

lousy me...fall sick again....it's juz sometime ago i completed my flu n some other illness med...today another round of more pills....really much more..no wonder so ex...threw $61 bucks on it...i've to use nets cos i dun think i even haf enuff cash in my purse...

 

but...they do not seem to be working...my fever is still there..my throat still hurts...my headache still killing me....n seriously wonder wat can i eat tml or even the next few days down the road...*sobz*...

 

guilty..can't study today...i've been slacking too much these....juz seem not to find the mood to study..for those who settle down to study... pls 指点...cos i think i unable to finish studying...

i seem to haf so much to say abt diff aspects of my life...but i dunno where to start n how to say...i juz seemed to be flooded by thoughts...

hmmz..it seems like everyone is bothered by one of these few tings.... sch work....work...relationship...friends....

 

hang on pple...we'll all sail thru tgt...

...hard on my face just at the exact pt....and this day..this time...

 

i just push away and avoid...cos i yet to find my direction....

 

Albert Ellis said, "People can choose their feelings.  No matter what happens to them, they can creatively decide to feel one way or another about it."  Do you agree with him? Can you support your position with your own or someone else's experience?

hmmz...i do agree to some extent that it's true..at least for me..i always tell myself i'm the one who will decide how i feel..the power is in me....just like 2 days ago...it was really a bad day..i was feeling rather depress...n washed my day with tears and beer....b4 i slp..i was lying on my bed..thinking of how i should feel tml...to bring my sadness to the next day...n just to act happy...or to try to start a day with a positive attitude....it took me quite sometime to think through....i decided to start positively as the things that i was unhappy with are things that are either unavoidable or irreversible. i think it does pay all at times to choose one feelings. i did have a better birthday that i expected...

but i guess there are many times when i want to choose my feelings..but there are always some barriers around...such as a body tat's totally drained...flooded by thoughts....

the power is in you most of the time.

not holiday...

not enuff sleep...

not enuff good food...

not enuff time...

not enuff slacking...

 

too much work...

too much headache...

too much meetings...

 

opps...complaining again...but join me ba...haha...

 

i can't wait to fly off...sometimes i juz wish to fly away...neither turning back or moving on.....

so sorry...i am not able to do anything to make u feel better...

I think i've changed...be it in the way i see things...the way i think...the way i do things...did i really change?.....or are you the one who changed?...

someone pls enlighten me..how can i look forward to the past?...

hehe..u all sld be glad that i can only upload 500 at 1 time...but do wait for next mth..for the last 2 days of mt rockies trip..i think the most beautiful picutres are frm there =p

hmmz..seems like msn space can only allow me to upload 500 pictures in 1 mth...sorry to say that the best picutres will be kept from you till i'm back...cos whistler is really a very beautiful place...