no direction...no motivation too...no mood....no support...no energy...nothing to look forward to...juz trying to push myself everyday...i'm trying to be positive...trying to laugh...trying to look happy....trying to take things easier...trying not to think too much...trying not to judge too soon...trying to try harder...trying...trying...

i still feel that i'm still dreaming...things happened too fast and too complicated...emotions need to be changing fast till i can't even grasp what i'm feeling....i am quite drained...both physically (it's not easy to be going for 7 interviews in 4 days)...mentally strained (interview kills brain cells).....juz when i think i can breathe...i'm out of air again...there a need to manage so much uncertainty....there are so many questions to ask...and so many pple to seek advice...some say i am always lucky...but one only feel lucky when one has been unlucky before...it's like i can only understand and cherish happiness is after i've felt so down before...

 

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