so fast...another year is coming to an end...i feel as though i'm on a roller coaster these days...motivation swinging from one positive end to a negative end...like you..i felt that i;ve gone beyond the tired stage..i'm feeling drained...they say that i'm pessimistic...but the fact is tat i've tried to be mosre optimistic...keep feeling like running away...but the only path have one way which is to face it...it's not matter of choice...keep rethinking what is keeping me going...seems to grasp it..but like the next moment it's gone...challenge can make us stronger...but it's a matter of if one can get pass it...everyday is like fighting a war...n i cannot see when i can end work everyday..it's like it's living in unpredictable like everyday...lunch is all abt feeling stomach but not about eating food...it is a blessing to be able to see daylight when i leave office...n eat dinner at home with food that is not cold...able to catch my parents and chat with them...blessing to not always juz grumble and complain...it seems like i'm almost at the end of world war one...but i can already feel world war two coming...when there's a new war coming...it means a fiercer war..with imporved weapons....change is the only constant...n i need to be the change....