it seems like i've been juggling with these 2 terms for a long long time or much more recently. Caught unexpected at times, praying hard for it to come at times. Letting it just pass by or holding it tightly. Taking it seriously or playing with it. Some regrets, much thinking. sometimes you say that it's luck but can it just be fate. sometimes you feel that it's fate but it may just be luck. Fated for life, lucky for life or it's just stopping by for the moment.

 

both have unknown endings though.

the weather these days are juz exactly like my mood theses days..it changes....so tired these days too....depressing at times....ok at the other times...very quiet for some moments..then tok none stop at the other...smiling...then stern look...感触良多...suddenly...头脑空空....mp says my eyes look smaller today...muz be i lack of slp...but there are some nites..i juz feel so tired...but dun feel like slping....enjoyed the short walk in the rain today...feeling sick again....juz hope i wun be sick tml...

 

time flies....

hmmz..so long since i last blogged....now...incoherent tots...mixed feelings...so many things in mind...so little to be said...

 

met my uni frenz for dinner...some of them still had to ot till quite late...it has only been months after we graduate....but no one seems really happy about working...each of them seems to be facing different problems...so this is all about work....so what is your motivation of work?

 

it has already been one month since i started this job..but everytime when i think back abt the 3 months that i worked previously...i seriously still miss those time....so much fun....seems like the general has given up...but i have the opportunity...i am really willing to go back and fight the war with you pple...even if i know it's a war on the losing end....cos i know we'll be fighting together....

 

glad to see you recover...cos it makes my heart ache to see u go thru the whole thing...gd that you did not remember anything...cos it was such a terrible nigtmare that is best left unknown...

 

seems to be losing out on a lot of things...i want to hold onto everything...i still hope that time can pass faster...i want to understand more...i want to accept more...i want to think more....i want to help more...i only want to be happy...i need affirmation...i want u to listen...i need you to ask...need something different...need to keep the old ones...

 

i dun want to be left alone...dun want to doubt myself...dun want to doubt you...dun want to feel out....dun want to keep quiet...dun want you to leave...