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Shaozhen Zhang

July 04

半年过了。。

Half a year has just passed. So, what have you accomplished? I can ask you but i can't answer it myself. opps. This phrase kept moving on my mind these times :  ‘算了。。算了。。
 
I've been falling sick, fever, flu, sore throat, eye infection seems to be visiting me rather often these days. *shoo...go away* . I was just on 3 days mc/home quaratine. Don't worry, i'm ok by now, not spreading germs
 
I've been looking forward to wkends? Are you also? Weekdays always seems so long, weekends always seem so short, right? Surely mah, weekday 5 days weekend 2 days. So busy in office these days. I've been snowballing. Luckily my wonderful team mate always help me out. But it seems like we've been making quite a fiar bit of mistakes these days. I declare i cock eye so i very scared to 4-eye. I need to do something about it. Can anyone advise me how to be more careful?
 
I've also seem how crude and evil some people maybe. How harsh, how practical this world is. There i go again, ‘算了。。算了。。It is really important to know how to 看开一点。But it's always easier said than done.
 
Are you happy? It seems hard to find happy people nowadays. Look around you. It seems like everyone has something to worry about. 开心也过一天,不开心也过一天. Why not choose to start a day feeling happy.  I think my problem now is only i always start my day feeling sleepy instead. haha.Sometimes, just give yourself a break. Don't keep hanging onto all your worries 24/7. This is so as worrying may only worsen the situation right.
 
I keep telling myself 'opportunites doesn't come knocking at your door everyday' so i grab them. I want to hold them tight but i think that may also indicate more disappointment. There are times one want to move on but keep looking back. When one compares onself to the others, the following always seems true: the grass is always greener on the other side.
 
I want to be better off the other half of the year but i don't know what my benchmark is.
 
good nite =)
June 07

i declare...

i declare...
 
 
 
 
 
 
i feel like running away
i've not been saving
i want a different life
i don't feel like doing anything
i feel that some people are pushing me too much
i need to reflect more
i've low confidence
i feel deprive of being happy
i want to sing
i'm irritated easily these days
i feel ignored at times
i don't feel like doing anything
i need to be less sensitive
i want to make a difference
i feel like letting go
i don't feel like helping anymore
i need to feel alive
i'm not happy with what i've now
i feel useless at times
i want to buy things
i need to be more understanding
i'm blant
i din think b4 i speak at times
i want to make u smile
i'm not a nice person to be wif
i can't help but to compare
i want to laugh
i need good food
i feel poor
i'm tired
i want to ignore
i don't want to think too much
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
April 26

充实的一天

It has been so long i had so much fun in a day. All thanks to xw n hz, today was such a wonderful saturday. As per last saturday, the sun was so freaking(this should be the 3rd time right) hot but it did not dampen our 'adventurous' mood to venture into different places.

 

We started off our 'Photography Trip' at Little India. This is the first time we're walking around that area alone. We were still thinking that we may bypass Farrer Park Station and all the temples there. Oh well, as i said this is the first time we are at this place, we just walked and walked. Before we know it we're already at Sim Lim Tower. We were thinking that since we were already at Bugis area, we shall got take a look at Haji Lane. But only for me, in Haji Lane, I can't stop shopping. haha.....i wanted to go to all the shops (even though they are selling stuffs that are quite expensive). 令可杀错不可放过的精神。Poor ladies, so tired but still have to go in and out those shops.

 

After window shopping, we walked to Arab Street. It seems to us that Arab Street was much more exciting than Little India as it was less commercialized. HZ was looking for charm to make new necklace.  Thus, we tried to look for those shops selling 'materials' for making jewelry. It was then the sun starts to go down. We were getting hungry, thirsty and tired. So, we walked all the way to Purivs Street for a Thai dinner at First Thai Restaurant. The phad thai, pandan chicken, thai kway teow (can't rmb what is the thai name), tom yam soup and the super nice thai ice tea which taste like yuan yang. It is orange in colour though. We rest our tired feet and had our dinner.

 

This is not the end. We continued our walk to cityhall and make our way to Marina Barrage. The place is big. The night scene is not bad, considered that this is singapore. This is the night, after so many hot days, that I had so much wind blowing on my face. Only one word to describe: . We tried so hard to take photos that are not blur without a tripod stand. As usual, my shaky hands aren't friendly. My wonderful camera also didn't 配合for the whole time that we were there. It declare dead and never woke up again. No batt.

 

So much fun today. We chat. We crap. We eat. We walk. We took photos.I took 105 photos today. 谢谢妹妹们!!~~

 

April 21

推动力。。。

work seems quite aimless these days, partly cos i'm not setting any goals or direction for myself. i just want to lead a 9-6 life. dun want any ot. dun want to reach office too early. i want to take leave. i want to go for holiday (again). 工作不开心不知道为什么。。maybe i'm finding more 'trouble' for myself. sometimes when if  i just close one eye, life will be much simpler. i flipped recruit yesterday. there seems to be nothing much of my interest.
 
ok. shall not talk about work. cos it's after work hours now. haha. this week seems so freaking slow. it was monday blue, now only pathetic tuesday. can't wait for this wkend to come and do things that i enjoy/like.
March 06

*sigh*

*sigh* this is how i feel like ending the current work week. it just give me a moment, yes, really just a moment of relief. This ends up to be the constant dose that i have been taking for days. Work has been stress these days. or maybe, it is i'm bad at stress management. it's not easy/possible to please everyone. It is not possible to complete daily work. I do not mind taking up more things. I do not mind staying up late. I just need a little more motivation and a little less pessimism. The worse is yet to come. i want to survive!